Well...friends...family...etc, 25 is slowly rearing it's ugly head...28 days and counting. What a whirlwind the last few weeks have been. Let's be honest... New friends, job interviews, life revelations, boys to date, relational maturity, I could go on. Some of those matter more than others. Maybe I'm only being honest because I'm on red wine glass #2...REGARDLESS!!!
Side note- I had a boss who used to say "irregardless" and that, dear readers, is NOT A FLIPPING WORD!!! just FYI :)
Anyways - Joshua Radin is singing about how "It's a Brand New Day" in the background and all I can think about is, the cycle never DOES end (check lyrics). I almost wish it would. I'm over it. I'll be ok though.
The waiting game is killing me, to be frank. Not about a job. I didn't interview for WEEKS for a reason. Interviewing means having to tell people "no". Interviewing is not a weakness. Talking to new people is not a weakness. Hence the reason I waited so long to kick start this whole "find a job" thing. I think I've narrowed it down to a good three choices. All totally different- one is a nonprofit position (being groomed for the VP of finance), another at a media company as a senior (have a few reservations but seems to be a great company and position), and one at a public accounting form (been there, done that , but WHO KNOWS, maybe I could do it again).
Now Jon McLaughlin sings about "Beautiful Disasters"
"She would change everything for happy ever after. Caught in the in between, a beautiful disaster."
In other news- I signed a new lease. Not moving. Same place. 10 month lease. Didn't really feel like paying $300 more a month while trying to figure my life out. I made a firm commitment to SA and my family and to give SA a "chance", if you will. You might or might not be all streamers and party hats about that, not 100% I am, but I know in my insides it was the right move. Gotta love those gut feelings, eh?
Well, dear ones, here is to waiting. Never imagined my life this way but doing the best with what I've been dealt. And no lies- not sure I'm 100% happy about that either. The big man upstairs and I have had a lot of talks....for a while now. I did so well for so long. Accomplished so much in such a short time. Now what.... What the heck??? I imagined so much more for my life by now. I don't know what God has planned, He has been rather tight lipped about it too, so I wait... Always waiting. Patience is NOT my best attribute... At all.
I definitely feel like that Jon McLaughlin song. :-/ C'mon... Who wants to tell me "this too shall pass" - highly advise against it. Just acquiesce in silence, that'd be ideal. Hope you're well, sorry for such a somber entry. Better next time. Promise :)
Vegas in october?!?!
Waiting for the brother in law smart mouth special any minute... Ha!
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