Think about what you're thinking about

An excerpt from Joyce Meyer's devotional "Battlefield of the Mind"

"...Whatever we focus on, we become...Wherever we put our energies or our attention, those things will develop...

If we focus only on the negative things in our lives, we become negative people. Everything, including our conversations, becomes negative. We soon lose our joy and live miserable lives--and it all started with our own thinking."

Joyce and I both challenge you to think about what you're thinking about.

I think... A lot! More than any sane human should. Maybe I'm insane. There I go again! It's a vicious cycle. One that can definitely lead to depression, discouragement, and a myriad of other downward spiraling, cause and effect situations. When we think negatively we are fueling a fire of unwelcome emotions.

I did this the other day. I sat in my bed and thought until 5 am. It wasn't constructive. Thankfully I have amazing family and friends to pull me out of such dumpy places.

One friend reminded me, ever so simply and sweetly, that we are fearfully and wonderfully LOVED. Also, that we are human beings, not human doings. So no matter how badly we think we suck, God loves us immensely! We can go to Him for anything. He is our Father. Literally!

I go to my dad for everything!!!! Good, bad, and ugly! Car accidents being the most recent. But also to share in good times and thankfulness for life in general. We shouldn't think negatively about ourselves or situations we may be in. Bad things happen, we sin, we mess up, stuff doesn't quite pan out the way we had hoped, but a Father's love is insurmountable and all encompassing. There is a reason, too, a method to the madness, if you will. Sometimes we will understand and sometimes we won't. But positive thinking, faith in our Father, and thankfulness for life's blessings are so critical.

A few more words to leave you with from Joyce...

"We should choose our thoughts carefully. We can think about what is wrong with our lives or about what is right with them. We can think about what is wrong with all the people we are in relationship with or we can see the good and meditate on that. The Bible teaches us to always believe the best. When we do that, it makes our own lives happier and more peaceful."

Happy thinking, friends!

Lord have mercy-that's all I got

Well...friends...family...etc, 25 is slowly rearing it's ugly head...28 days and counting. What a whirlwind the last few weeks have been. Let's be honest... New friends, job interviews, life revelations, boys to date, relational maturity, I could go on. Some of those matter more than others. Maybe I'm only being honest because I'm on red wine glass #2...REGARDLESS!!!

Side note- I had a boss who used to say "irregardless" and that, dear readers, is NOT A FLIPPING WORD!!! just FYI :)

Anyways - Joshua Radin is singing about how "It's a Brand New Day" in the background and all I can think about is, the cycle never DOES end (check lyrics). I almost wish it would. I'm over it. I'll be ok though.

The waiting game is killing me, to be frank. Not about a job. I didn't interview for WEEKS for a reason. Interviewing means having to tell people "no". Interviewing is not a weakness. Talking to new people is not a weakness. Hence the reason I waited so long to kick start this whole "find a job" thing. I think I've narrowed it down to a good three choices. All totally different- one is a nonprofit position (being groomed for the VP of finance), another at a media company as a senior (have a few reservations but seems to be a great company and position), and one at a public accounting form (been there, done that , but WHO KNOWS, maybe I could do it again).

Now Jon McLaughlin sings about "Beautiful Disasters"

"She would change everything for happy ever after. Caught in the in between, a beautiful disaster."

In other news- I signed a new lease. Not moving. Same place. 10 month lease. Didn't really feel like paying $300 more a month while trying to figure my life out. I made a firm commitment to SA and my family and to give SA a "chance", if you will. You might or might not be all streamers and party hats about that, not 100% I am, but I know in my insides it was the right move. Gotta love those gut feelings, eh?

Well, dear ones, here is to waiting. Never imagined my life this way but doing the best with what I've been dealt. And no lies- not sure I'm 100% happy about that either. The big man upstairs and I have had a lot of talks....for a while now. I did so well for so long. Accomplished so much in such a short time. Now what.... What the heck??? I imagined so much more for my life by now. I don't know what God has planned, He has been rather tight lipped about it too, so I wait... Always waiting. Patience is NOT my best attribute... At all.

I definitely feel like that Jon McLaughlin song. :-/ C'mon... Who wants to tell me "this too shall pass" - highly advise against it. Just acquiesce in silence, that'd be ideal. Hope you're well, sorry for such a somber entry. Better next time. Promise :)

Vegas in october?!?!

Waiting for the brother in law smart mouth special any minute... Ha!