Well, it’s been a while. What’s new? Nothing really. Life isn’t an amazing race but it isn’t too boring. I am doing things a bit differently and I’ve actually accomplished a resolution or two! Here’s a recap:
1. I read a book! I know that wasn’t on my “blog version” of resolutions but it’s been on my mind a while. The whole point is that I love movies and I like to read but I don’t get many recommendations. I decided to read the book before seeing the movie since many movies are made from books. “Extremely Loud and Incredible Close” was started January 15th and finished January 21st around 5:45pm; just in time for the movie at 8:35. I hadn’t even seen a preview! All in all it was an awesome movie. The younger crowd at the theater was a bit of a shock. Not too sure they fully understood. However, as I write this I realize I am confused. I feel like I misread but surely I didn’t. That just might be a downfall to reading the book before seeing the movie. Major parts were altered but they both were amazing. I took note of two other ‘book turned movie’ flicks.
2. Giving second chances – hasn’t been going too well. May need to revise this one. I am a firm believer in that some people are meant to only be in your life for a time, a season… they serve a purpose and that’s all. Whether or not we know or understand what that reason is, is a whole other story!
3. Saying “no” to things. I’m finally catching on. Saying “no” doesn’t always mean I am mad or just being a jerk. It simply means I have to do what’s right to protect my heart. Minimizes stress and worry, that’s for sure!
4. Random thought – I feel lately, due to less blogging (maybe?) that my head fills with thoughts a lot faster. Like I can’t put them into words fast enough. Some nonsense; some profound. For example, I had to get this all out right now. The past few weeks I’ve wanted to write about songs, and quotes, and God and now that book. All week I have been wanted to tell how awesome it was and how I related to it. I might revisit number 1.
5. Traveling – I went to San Angelo! I visited my BFF, K. We had an awesome time. Even though San Angelo, TX isn’t the most exciting place, it was so great o do a whole lot of nothing. It was really nice to catch up and spend quality time watching the Food Network, HGTV, and Style. I love my friend. Being so much at the same point in life with someone is a blessing; knowing someone understands your heart is huge! It’s so great to be there for someone and have them there for you no matter what. Those are the people, unlike the few in #2, that are ‘lifers’. I am blessed to have many. So traveling is getting accomplished – just need to plan a big trip soon! But corpus in 2 weeks will be nice – visiting another couple ‘lifers’!
6. So, I failed one of my resolutions. Less doctor visits. Nothing major but I learned my lesson about waiting out any type of pain. If it hurts or something doesn’t feel right, see a doc! So I did. I am fine. Meds are helpful. However, googling something the day before about issues encountered after an appendectomy totally jinxed me!
So back to the book/movie. Book first. Book was awesome. The little boy is incredible. Oskar Schell. Loved him and still think he is real. If he were, we’d be friends. I think we are very similar. In the book, he would ‘invent’ things in his mind – it was his way of dealing with the current situation or how he was feeling. He also did it to take his mind off of things. He would come up with all these crazy inventions and ideas like pocket extensions, buildings that moved instead of having elevators, incredibly long limos, and everyone having the same heart beat the way women who live together have the same menstrual cycle. He would always have an elaborate idea to answer the question “why” or “how”. In a similar way I use hopes and dreams to deal with things or situations. Sometimes, and this happens often or more than it should, I can dream up an entire new life. Maybe that’s why I played with barbies so much and for so long! I dealt/deal with things by way of dream. When things get bad or when I have hope in something or someone – my dreams run away with my reality. This is not always a good thing.
The book had many elements that the movie did not. However, if it were to contain the exact same content, the movie would be awfully long. Also, the comedic relief in the book was severely lacking in the movie. The movie gave me ‘heavy boots’. That’s what Oskar would always say in regard to his mood. He had light or heavy boots. The book was written so well. To the point. The love and feeling of the person speaking poured onto the page. When the child was narrating/speaking, you felt him. Even when it switched to letters written by the grandparents, the words were so heartfelt. The grandma, in the book, would always tell Oskar, “I hope you never think of anyone as much as I think about you” and at first I was confused, but now – I know who I might tell that to one day. My niece, I love that little woman to pieces.
The book was confusing sometimes. But so real. It represented every human emotion so well. I could go on and on about the book. There were so many thoughts I had at one point. I loved the ending. Life is never simple. We all need closure. Closure is something I think a lot of us struggle with. It’s a very difficult thing to obtain. Part of me believes it just happens. It’s a timing issue. Some find closure for things way before others. I also believe the rate in which one finds closure is very situational.
Few random thoughts before I go
1. I love my job. Each day is different and exciting and busy. I am so blessed to be where I am, with the people I am there with. It’s a great feeling- doing what you love – and knowing it will be like that for many, many years. Very exciting!
2. do you ever think about something and realize that with each thought/inquiry/research attempt, you actually begin to understand less. What would that be called? Irony? A paradox? A coincidence? Whatever it is, it sucks. It provides an individual with absolutely no closure.
3. All natural, unsweetened cranberry juice sucks
4. I love that I still dream even if those dreams might never come true. Someone has to have hope right? Even if it hurts in the end. For example – me as an amazing bakery chef, a mom, a book critic, a marathon runner, etc.
Have an awesome week. Keep dreaming J we all have a little Oskar Schell in us!
1 comment:
Keep dreaming! Love you wherever you may be!!!!
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