Roll your eyes, I know you want to…
Anyways, life’s been really busy, actually (would you expect anything less from me?) and the last 4 weeks have FLOWN by. My most favorite thing about being off has been meeting new people and reconnecting with old friends. It’s amazing what you can learn from your family, friends, and other people in your life. I haven’t written anything in months I feel like and that makes me sad.
So what was I thinking when I quit my job, you might ask? I have no idea but I know that it was the right decision. My heart has never been surer of something. And now…dun dun dun… its creeping back into the unsure area.
“What now?” you might ask next. In fact, many of you have asked…and my answer is “I have no idea!” Here are the options that I have considered:
- Finding a job here in SA – in industry
- Finding a job here in SA – in public accounting
- Taking one of two possible opportunities in D
- Going BACK to school (holy!) for my PhD in organizational development…because what else would I get?
- Starting my own business….uhhhh that’s kind of a stretch
- Becoming a hippy
- Becoming a gypsy and just traveling around in Lexi until the repo man comes haha
That’s about all I’ve come up with.
So for the more interesting part of all this -the art (really a struggle) of waiting on the Lord. I have never actually done that… I don’t think…wait… nope… definitely not. I’ve always done what I want. I’ve always just consumed myself in LIFE STUFF and never just sat and asked… ”Lord, what’s the deal? What’s the plan, man? What the heck am I doing with my life?” Maybe I’ve asked the last one before but never sat long enough to figure out the answer.
And so, for those of you so eager to know what I’m doing with my life, I wish I could tell you. I haven’t quite gotten the “go ahead” on anything. However, I’ve done my due diligence in applying for more than a dozen jobs in SA, seeking out information on graduate/doctoral programs, and meeting with people in D. All that’s really left to do is wait for clarity. Waiting is really, REALLY hard. Haha I used to think that living in the Victorian or Renaissance era would be cool (because of the awesome clothes) until someone pointed out the fact that I am a huge proponent of instant gratification and back then nothing was instant. So, yes, waiting is a challenge. But it’s been good (I think???). I’ve grown a lot actually. Been weeding out negative/bad things, working through personal things, and taking time to sit back and smell the roses (or the coffee, since half my time is spent at Starbucks, my “office” if you will).
I know that God’s plan is the only plan I should have my eyes on. Deciphering between what is God’s will, what are my personal wants, and what is Satan’s way of confusing the heck out of me is the biggest obstacle.
So for now, I am going to enjoy my time off, visit friends, try to do a bit of traveling, plan my Hawaii vacation, get in shape mentally, physically, and emotionally, pray for direction and clarity, and hope that it all works out before the money runs out! (Prayers greatly appreciated!)
